Showing posts from April, 2014

Letting Go

I know this is supposed to be a blog about writing and my progress with my writing, but I also want it to be a place where I can share things. Things like life changes and challenges and everything in between.

For the last 54 days I have been participating in a morning meditation practice called 30 Days To Grace. I first learned about this from my therapist. Let me pause here and back up...

Last year when Fishubby and I were in Paris, I had what I refer to as a nervous breakdown. Really, it was an intense anxiety attack. I could not, would not leave the hotel to go out to dinner. I couldn't. I physically felt like if I left the hotel, something horrible would happen.

I sent Fishubby out to eat without me (he ended up bringing back a pizza to share -- pizza in Paris is DELICIOUS) and I went into the hotel room and cried and cried. Bawled my eyes out, had thoughts of suicide (you know, "he'd be better off without me" and "I'm holding him back" type though…